Monday, January 21, 2013

I packed up all my skinny clothes

I've been in a mood.  A purging mood.  I've gone through my cupboards.  I've gone through my CD's and DVD's.  I've gone through all of the kids' clothes.  And now, I've gone through my own clothes.

Friends, it's brutal.  I took out everything that didn't fit.  Some of it I gave to Goodwill, some of it I gave to friends, and other stuff went into bins for when I am thin enough to wear them again.  A lot of it went into bins.

I have, like 7 items in my closet now.  I'm not exaggerating.  I literally have pretty much nothing to wear.

I've been struggling.  Hard core.  I know that comes as no surprise.  I've been trying to get back in the game, get to "that place" where I'm motivated enough to do what needs to be done.  I started a couple times.  But I wasn't there yet.  I think I am now.

Today is the first of my 2 binge days.  We are sick.  The kids are sick.  I don't feel well.  But I'm doing this.

I hope I can stick to it this time.  I really, really hope so.  Otherwise come the end of the year or whenever, and I'll be the same.  Or bigger.  That's a scary thought.

I decided to have a loose goal for myself.  By the time Nora is 1, so on June 10th, I hope to have lost all the baby weight.  I think that's fairly reasonable.

Apparently your hair changes color as you get thinner?? ;-P

I know that thin person is inside me.  She's just stuck in layers of fat, currently.  But she will once again shine.  I can NOT believe I used to think I was fat... This is me when I was like 5 minutes pregnant with Nora.

I will get back there.  I will.  

Can I get an AMEN!?!? 


  1. Amen!
    I don't have the guts to admit to myself I won't fit into all those clothes ever again so they just sit in my closet, mocking me everyday. Someday soon I will do this just like you.
    Good luck but like I told you before when you thought you were fat you are not, we are our own worst enemy.

  2. yes I agree you werent fat. You will loose the weight little by little...and if are still beautiful!! Hear me when I say this!