Friends, it's brutal. I took out everything that didn't fit. Some of it I gave to Goodwill, some of it I gave to friends, and other stuff went into bins for when I am thin enough to wear them again. A lot of it went into bins.
I have, like 7 items in my closet now. I'm not exaggerating. I literally have pretty much nothing to wear.
I've been struggling. Hard core. I know that comes as no surprise. I've been trying to get back in the game, get to "that place" where I'm motivated enough to do what needs to be done. I started a couple times. But I wasn't there yet. I think I am now.
Today is the first of my 2 binge days. We are sick. The kids are sick. I don't feel well. But I'm doing this.
I hope I can stick to it this time. I really, really hope so. Otherwise come the end of the year or whenever, and I'll be the same. Or bigger. That's a scary thought.
I decided to have a loose goal for myself. By the time Nora is 1, so on June 10th, I hope to have lost all the baby weight. I think that's fairly reasonable.
|Apparently your hair changes color as you get thinner?? ;-P|
I know that thin person is inside me. She's just stuck in layers of fat, currently. But she will once again shine. I can NOT believe I used to think I was fat... This is me when I was like 5 minutes pregnant with Nora.
I will get back there. I will.
Can I get an AMEN!?!?