Definition of GLUTTON
1a : one given habitually to greedy and voracious eating and drinking
Gluttony, derived from the Latin gluttire meaning to gulp down or swallow, means over-indulgence and over-consumption of food, drink, or wealth items to the point of extravagance or waste. In some Christian denominations, it is considered one of the seven deadly sins—a misplaced desire of food or its withholding from the needy.
Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things.
In the end they will be destroyed. Their own emotions are their god, and they take pride in the shameful things they do. Their minds are set on worldly things.
Last night, I was a glutton. I was greedy. I was selfish. I ate from emotional distress instead of turning to God. I shoved food in at an alarming rate, heedless of what it tasted like, of how it would make me feel afterward, of what the root of the problem was/is.
Today, I am very, very sick. I have basically poisoned my body. This body, this temple, that God has entrusted to me.
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own. 1 Cor 6:19
I feel like this is more than a mental game; more than mind over matter; more than forcing myself to just do something. This is spiritual warfare. This is about me turning to God instead of to food, about me respecting my body, about not being ruled by my stomach and emotions.
I was sent this article by The Grace and Strength program; it's the HCG diet, but with a support of godly women to back it up and help you through. It's long, I think it's worth the read and highly recommend you take the time to do so.
Get Back Up!
So, this is my game plan. I'm continuing on with HCG. I'm having a do-over. I'm picking up more drops today, but these are non-hormonal. I don't know what's in them, but I'm going to try them. Sorry if this is TMI, but there's something weird going on. My boobs are still full of milk. FULL of it. They are heavy and I can tell my milk hasn't dried up. Which is really weird because I haven't nursed Nora for the last 3 weeks. I'm wondering if the HCG hormone has something to do with that??
Also, I am going to be much more strict with myself to stick to protocol. I will allow myself a cup of coffee with creamer a day, but as far as winging it with my meat and vegetables, I'm going to reign that in. And no more nibbling on things that aren't approved. I'll stick to my apple or grapefruit for snacks.
Hopefully the scale will be kind to me and start going down. Quickly.
I have a lot to meditate on with regard to gluttony and being pulled around by my emotions and mindless eating. So I'll be working on that aspect of things, too.
I hope you all are doing well!!