Yikes!! How has it been almost a month since I last posted?? :-O
I really need to learn how to post from my phone; I'd be able to keep up much better that way. Consider it on my to-do list. :)
Lots has happened in the last 4 weeks. I had a fantastic weekend with the ladies in my church. It's an annual retreat and is always a really good time. This was one of the occasions I was stressing about being "fat" at, an I am so happy to say that my weight didn't affect me at all. AT ALL!!!!!! Keep in mind that I am the biggest I have ever, ever been. In my entire life. And there are LOTS of skinny mothers that come to this retreat; quite a few who have had babies AFTER me and are back to their slim, trim selves again.
But, it didn't affect my joy. Or my self-confidence. My weight does NOT define who I am. I can't even begin to express the freedom I've experienced.
And to prove it, God tested me. Within a span of 4 or 5 days I had not one, not two, but THREE different people comment about my weight. One lady offered me a 30 day trial to Curves, insisting that I'd feel SO much better about myself if I started working out. Another lady offered me a pair of pants; size 18/20. And a third, total stranger that I met in the pediatrician's office let me know she is a life coach for Take Shape for Life and she'd be happy to give me info on it.
And none of it moved me! I didn't fall into a depression. I didn't cry. I didn't get mad or sad or offended. I laughed at it! LAUGHED!!!!
If that's not freedom, I don't know what is.
I'm actually looking into the Take Shape for Life thing. They have meal replacements and a specialized plan for nursing mothers. One lady I know lost 100 pounds on it, and the lady from the ped's office has just 15 pounds to go to get to her pre-pregnancy weight. She's lost between 1-2 pounds a week, while nursing, without working out.
Honestly, I don't have the time, energy or stamina to work out currently. I think it'll be much easier when I get some of these extra pounds off.
I've had the flu for 4 days now, and the good thing about that is I've lost some weight. ;-) I'll take it, as it's the only good thing to come from this wretched flu. My brother-in-law gets married this Saturday, so I'm hoping to be back to good health by then.
I'll look into updating from my phone so there won't be such looooong silences between my posts. :)