Tuesday, March 19, 2013


Yikes!! How has it been almost a month since I last posted?? :-O

I really need to learn how to post from my phone; I'd be able to keep up much better that way.  Consider it on my to-do list. :)

Lots has happened in the last 4 weeks.  I had a fantastic weekend with the ladies in my church. It's an annual retreat and is always a really good time.  This was one of the occasions I was stressing about being "fat" at, an I am so happy to say that my weight didn't affect me at all.  AT ALL!!!!!!  Keep in mind that I am the biggest I have ever, ever been.  In my entire life.  And there are LOTS of skinny mothers that come to this retreat; quite a few who have had babies AFTER me and are back to their slim, trim selves again.

But, it didn't affect my joy.  Or my self-confidence.  My weight does NOT define who I am.  I can't even begin to express the freedom I've experienced.

And to prove it, God tested me.  Within a span of 4 or 5 days I had not one, not two, but THREE different people comment about my weight.  One lady offered me a 30 day trial to Curves, insisting that I'd feel SO much better about myself if I started working out.  Another lady offered me a pair of pants; size 18/20.  And a third, total stranger that I met in the pediatrician's office let me know she is a life coach for Take Shape for Life and she'd be happy to give me info on it.

And none of it moved me! I didn't fall into a depression.  I didn't cry.  I didn't get mad or sad or offended.  I laughed at it! LAUGHED!!!!

If that's not freedom, I don't know what is. 

I'm actually looking into the Take Shape for Life thing.  They have meal replacements and a specialized plan for nursing mothers.  One lady I know lost 100 pounds on it, and the lady from the ped's office has just 15 pounds to go to get to her pre-pregnancy weight.  She's lost between 1-2 pounds a week, while nursing, without working out.

Honestly, I don't have the time, energy or stamina to work out currently.  I think it'll be much easier when I get some of these extra pounds off. 

I've had the flu for 4 days now, and the good thing about that is I've lost some weight. ;-)  I'll take it, as it's the only good thing to come from this wretched flu.  My brother-in-law gets married this Saturday, so I'm hoping to be back to good health by then. 

I'll look into updating from my phone so there won't be such looooong silences between my posts. :)


  1. Hey there, I have missed you. I am stuck at home now since my mom got home from the hospital. Pneumonia 2/14-2/23. I actually lost a ton while she was in there because I would get up shower dressed and drive into the hospital around 10:00. I would sit with her until visiting hours were over at 8:30. I would only get a soft pretzel or raisin bar (tastykakes, I don't think you have that out where you live) get home around 9:00 and maybe have a piece of toast for dinner. I actually fit into ever pair of pants I own. BUT since being home and not being able to go anywhere for a month it is creeping back on. I am making an effort to not snack all day but it is hard because I am so bored.
    As I said before you are perfect at the weight you are and you'll be perfect higher or lower. JUST BE HAPPY and everything will fall into place. My mom after being heavy most of her life has lost 80 pounds and can't stop losing. They will remove her from the transplant list if she goes any lower. All those years wasted wishing to be thinner now she might die because of being too thin.

  2. I'm so so happy for you. Sorry we didn't get to talk again!!!! Ugh we gotta do something about that! But I saw you and you looked happy and beautiful!! I think a person who emanates happiness and confidence is beautiful at any size !!!
    How rude of people to offer weight loss advice when not asked for !!! So happy for you that you stood the test!:)

  3. You are amazing not to crack under the weight of those comments. Seriously, people!!!!!!! Only the peace of God will let you see who you are in Him...and that isn't any number related to a size or scale.