Thursday, December 1, 2011

Tiny Blessings

Hi Friends,
Sorry for my absence. I haven't been feeling well, and frankly, I'm sick and tired of only coming here to complain how hard it all is.

Recently I've started to feel the baby move and that has helped me SO much.  To remember that the whole reason I'm going through this is for the tiny person inside.  It's not just a sickness, it's not just feeling half-dead.  I get a baby out of it! A BABY!!

Even though it still feels like June is forever away, it's becoming more real.  And it is worth everything.  Absolutely all of it.

I'm pretty sure I'll be heading to the hospital for another round of IV fluids either today or tomorrow.  I've been so down and out this week, and we're getting our Christmas tree this weekend and I want to be present for that.  Not just dragging my sick arse around the lot, but enjoying it with my family.  And IV fluids is a sure fire way to be able to do that.

I think the kids and I will decorate the house tomorrow.  Every year we make snowflakes out of coffee filters and it's a much loved activity.  So we'll be doing that, pulling out our Christmas decorations, setting up the nativity and then on Saturday decorating the tree.

So all in all, I'm doing well, even if physically I'm still sick.  It IS getting better, though.  I'm able to keep more down, even if my appetite has decreased.  I haven't weighed in forever, mostly because I just can't be bothered.  There's not really anything I can do at this point, so why stress about it??  I'm just doing the best I can for now, and that's all I can ask of myself.

Hope you all are doing well and that the holiday cheer has arrived at your house!

1 comment:

  1. So glad to hear from you. I would take a complaint from you any day over no post at all, it seems like my daily phone call from a friend.
    I can't imagine how hard this must be on you being sick, taking care of the kids and house and on top of everything else planning for Christmas. I am overwhelmed just thinking about putting up my tree and having family stay with me over the holidays.
    I put the candles and wreaths in my front windows and that about wiped me out.
    We have a puppy this year in the house and I am afraid of what he will do to the tree once it is up. He is a 90 pound lab so he could do major damage. When he is outside he digs up actual roots and drags the bushes around the yard, ugh!!!!!!
    I have a special wrought iron tree I put in my upstairs hallway that has all the special "breakable" ornaments, like wedgewood, mackenzie child, blown glass, so that it was away from the rough and tumble downstairs when my nieces and nephews are here but know with the puppy I am not sure I will be able to put that up. Lets not even think about the garland around the doorways and stair rail.
    Maybe I should just go someplace warm for Christmas and worry about next year.
    I hope you have a Christmas miracle and feel 100% better but if not, at least you are not on a donkey staying in an empty barn. (A funny reference to Mary and Jesus. Hope you don't take offense. It is just my way of saying, it could always be worse!)
    xoxo, MB