I currently look kinda like this:
Why? Well, because I happened to see a picture of myself from the back. And wowza. It wasn't pretty. Basically I am as wide as I am tall.
I feel like this:
Now, I know it's normal and healthy to gain weight while pregnant. And I thought I was dealing pretty well with it, despite being the heaviest I've ever been. Ever. In my entire life.
But when I saw that picture, I just started crying. Because I am short (5'3") and have a short torso, pregnancy does not look very good on me. As opposed to someone taller, with a longer torso.
I know it's just hormones. I know I don't really look like the lady above. I know that pregnancy is the absolute best reason EVER to gain weight. But today, it's hard.
I think part of my problem is that the only successful way I've lost a significant amount of weight in the past is with HCG. But I don't think I can do that anymore, because of how I responded to it, hormonally. So it makes me really freak a little about how I'm going to lose the pregnancy weight, without being able to do HCG.
Anyway, I'm kind of just talking myself through it currently. I haven't gained massive amounts of weight. I'm at 25 pounds, which isn't bad, it's just more than I've ever gained before. I know I'll figure it out. I just had a freak out moment. :-P
Overall, things are fine and going well. I just needed to vent a little bit.