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On Friday night we got a phone call that will change our lives forever.

My MIL has a brain tumor. She will be having surgery soon, then chemo and radiation. If all goes well, she'll have 5-6 years of life left.

Suddenly, things just got put into perspective.

Weight loss? Sooo not important; at this stage in the game, I'm not morbidly obese. I don't have health issues because of excess fat. It's not a priority.

What IS a priority is my family. The people I love the most. So THAT is what I will focus on.

I'll keep this blog going, just because I would like to lose these last ten pounds. It'd be great if it happens, but if not, it really, really doesn't matter.

I did well with not eating wheat until last night. I ate a bowl of Quaker Oatmeal Squares cereal, thinking they were made of OATS. Until I got sick and looked at the ingredients. Wheat is the second ingredient. I ended up throwing up and have been having bowel problems ever since.

Although, I've been sick since I heard the news. But the wheat definitely had something to do with it. I remember now that I went off wheat a while back, before we moved. Then I ate one piece of garlic bread and my stomach was in agony within 5 minutes.

So I plan to steer clear of wheat for the most part.

I made rice pudding this weekend. Rice pudding is something that you either love or hate, in my opinion. I happen to love it, and since it's wheat free, it's a good option for me. I've been nibbling on it since I made it.

I've also been consuming mass quantities of Almond Joys. The coconut and almond and chocolate are a good combo and I've found that I have been eating way more than is necessary, trying to cope with the news that someone whom I hold very dear, someone I respect and love is going to be dealing with some very traumatic things very soon.

I know it's not right. Chocolate can't help anything, in the long run. And I'm so thankful that I am a Christian and can pray. Prayer is powerful.

So... I'm praying for my sweet mother in law. And I'm working to maintain a healthy lifestyle in it all. I don't want to drown myself in chocolate to numb the pain. That doesn't do anybody any favors.

My weigh in today was 139.8; half a pound down despite all the Almond Joys I ate. I know stress and cutting out wheat has something to do with it.

I hope you have a good day, and if you're a Christian I once again ask for your prayers for my wonderful mother in law. We know God can do miracles, and we know He works all things for our best.