I am nauseated, dizzy, exhausted, weak. I feel like everything is weighing down on me. My husband is gone for the week, and I really don't know how much more of this I can take.
I am taking my kids in for strep tests this afternoon. Their throats hurt and I think they have sinus infections on top of it. They are grumpy and don't feel well.
I have approximately 12 loads of laundry piled up in my bedroom, waiting to be folded and put away. My house needs to be vacuumed and swept. The dog needs a bath. I need a shower.
And yet, just thinking about it all makes me so tired that I just want to find a dark hole and hibernate. Or else drink a 5 Hour Energy Drink. ;-) Except those things make me super jittery and in my current state I don't think that's even remotely wise.
I am taking it easy, and not expecting too much of myself. Really, I'm not expecting anything of myself besides taking care of physical needs like food and sleep.
I am sorry to be such a downer, but I don't want to just pretend everything is hunky dory when it's really not. But at the same time I don't want it to be a complainfest either.
So I'm keeping my head up, taking it slow and easy, lowering my expectations and just aim to get through this day in one piece. =)
Oh RA,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you are in this state. All I can do is pray, listen, read and support you. I believe things will improve.