Thursday, February 17, 2011

Half Dead

I'm half dead. I can't really function like this, but there doesn't seem to be an end in sight.

I need to sleep. Uninterrupted. For more than 3 hours. And not start my day at 5:30a.m. day after day after day after day.

After my high and holy post yesterday I totally bombed and ate rice crackers and cheese for lunch. In copious amounts. I even ate chocolate peanut butter ice cream, and I don't even care for ice cream! The stress is getting to be too much. I'm going crazy.

I weighed 139.6 today and I can't even be bothered to care. All I can think about is sleep. How can I sleep, when can I sleep, where can I sleep.

I know that I'm in my PMS week, which doesn't help anything, and I know part of my weight gain is water retention and bloating.

I'm taking a mental health day. My mom and sisters are coming over. I'm sending the kids outside to run off some energy. I'm making boiled eggs so I have an easy protein snack to grab. I'm throwing away the ice cream. And I'm thanking the good Lord above for a) Xanax so I don't turn into a total she-wolf and b) that Josh comes home tonight.

Until tomorrow....


  1. Feel better. Fatigue and stress are always what get me too. The stresses of everyday life can seem so overwhelming at times. I hope you can find some time to sleep. Chocolate peanut butter ice cream would tempt me beyond belief!

  2. I don't know how you do it. We just got a puppy and I am exhausted with having to get up at night to go out with him and spend the whole day watching him because he can't be trusted yet but I can always put him in his crate and take a nap when he does. With kids there is nothing that you can do. I too always reach for the chocolate and cookies and soda when I feel like this and I know it will only make it worse but I just can't help it. I don't know if it is possible but can you hire a neighborhood kid just to come play with the kids for a few hours one day so you can get the sleep you need? I hope you misery (my word, not yours) ends soon.