Sorry for the short hiatus... I went away with my husband to celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary. =)
I've been doing fairly well. I gave up cutting out wheat since it didn't really seem to affect my weight and it was starting to really stress me out.
Today as I was going to pick up Kate from school, I was just struck with the thought, "I am so blessed." My life really is so rich. I have so much to be thankful for. I have wonderful family and friends. WONDERFUL. I have 3 healthy, amazing children. Yes, they are going to turn my hair gray by the time I'm 35 and yes they are a handful, but they are healthy and they love me and I love them. I am so BLESSED!
I have an amazing husband. Really, words can't even explain how amazing he is. You'd just have to meet him, and those of you who know him have a small taste. I am so BLESSED!
The last 7 years of our marriage have been rough. I've been sick for the majority of it. Really sick. Sick and pregnant or sick and nursing. :-P Hormonal doesn't even begin to cover it. We've been through so, so much. And in spite of it all, he still loves me. Really, truly, passionately, compassionately loves me. I am so BLESSED!
And I love him, more than I even thought it was possible to love someone. All the hardships and ups and downs have only served to bring us closer together. I love him completely, I trust him completely, and he completes me. :-P Sorry, I had to throw that in there. ;-) I am so BLESSED!
And so, as I sat there in my van, I realized that the number on the scale is insignificant. It really is. Why am I beating myself up over a number on the scale?? It doesn't make sense.
I thought of you, Dawne. Of your struggle to get to that number on the scale. And yet, you are so much MORE than that stupid number! You aren't a failure just because you haven't seen a certain number. You run. You eat clean. You've made huge and lasting life changes. You are so BLESSED!
In regards to my weight I feel sort of non-plussed. I know I'm not at the end of my journey. I know I'd still like to lose a few more pounds. But it's not worth worrying and stressing over. I'm going to take it slow. Watch what I eat. See if I can fit in some exercise.
But for the most part, I am so BLESSED. And that is far more important than a number on the scale.