Wednesday, December 18, 2013
You guys, I don't know what to do. After seeing that two pound gain, I kinda lost it. I was sad and discouraged. I didn't binge, at least. But I did have a handful of peanut butter pretzels, and then later some salami and cheese and cucumbers, and lastly a cheeseburger and fries from McDonalds on our way to a Christmas concert. Bleh.
I didn't weigh today, and now I'm grappling with a decision. Should I start back up today, and use the drops that I'm not sure are working, or should I just wait til after Christmas and get new drops?
Just to be clear, I can buy new drops whenever I need to. But I'm wondering if I'm setting myself up for failure by trying to do a strict diet during this season of visiting/entertaining and it revolves significantly around food. I'm kind of leaning towards starting after Christmas. But am I just giving up and taking the easy way out??
I really am not sure what to do, but I do know this: thinking about sticking with the diet during this time makes me stressed. So I think that's my answer. I'll back off, but not allow myself to overeat. I will be watchful and mindful of what's going in my mouth.
I will start again. I will conquer this. I have to. It's a fight I'm not willing to give up. I can't give up.
So I guess that's where I stand... kind of on hold with HCG but definitely NOT on hold with moderation. And not a false sense of moderation, either:
I will truly be aware of whether I'm eating out of physical hunger or soul hunger.
Here's to a successful holiday season!
Posted by The Skinny Turtle at 9:33 AM