Sorry I went MIA. We have been busy with the holidays, then our little family took an impromptu trip to the coast.
I am on Day One of low calorie HCG. I had a little epiphany over the weekend while we were away. I was having my binge days before the low cal part of my diet (and I enjoyed every bit of it). ;-) Anyway. I was thinking about the upcoming days of eating low calorie. And I wasn't freaking out about it. You know why?
Because I WANTED to do it. Not because I felt I HAD to. There's a big difference. Honestly, if I were marooned on an island with no mirrors and just my family and friends, I would be fine with how I am right now. Which is saying something, because I have never, ever, EVER been this large. Ever. But the truth is, I want to change FOR ME.
I want to be healthier. I want to start jogging. I don't want to have a heart attack while climbing stairs, carrying loads of stuff when we are on vacation. I don't want to think about my clothes/what I look like all day. I just want to be me, a healthy version of me.
I'm hoping to be down 30 pounds by the time we go to Mexico, which would put me at roughly the half way mark. That's a little depressing, cuz I just want to be DONE, but you know what? It's a good, solid start.
So that's where I'm at. Going into the New Year with high hopes of getting myself back.
I hope you had a fabulous holiday season!