Is it just me, or is the world falling apart around my very ears? I learned today that yet another church member has died of cancer. In the past week 3 church members (from different countries) have died. I have a mother-in-law and 2 friends battling cancer. What is going on??
I know God is in control; I personally believe that with all my heart. But it is so unsettling to see death so many times in such a short time frame. I find myself having to battle all these fears and worries; fears that I'll lose my loved ones and fears that I'll die. I know I have to work through these things, I know I have to trust in the Lord and believe that all our days are numbered. Nothing will happen that isn't His perfect plan. And eating a sleeve of Thin Mint Girl Scout cookies doesn't change anything!
I didn't eat a sleeve of them, just to be clear. But I did eat 5 of them. And then put them away so I wouldn't continue to plow through them at an alarming rate.
WHY do I turn to food? I don't understand it. It doesn't comfort me. It doesn't heal me. It doesn't alleviate my fears. So why do I do that? It's sheer craziness.
This weekend I'm going to a church women's retreat and I am so looking forward to it. I can't wait to nourish my spirit and I'm looking forward to practicing moderation with all the delicious food and snacks that are always provided. =)
Speaking of snacks, Dawne- Look what I found!
Can you believe it!? I'd never even heard of them until you told me about the Tim Tam Slam, and now here they are, sitting on the shelves of Target! So crazy. =)
I went to my friend's house today; she's the one who has given me foot baths in the past. As in, the kind that draws out all the yucky nastiness. I forgot to take my cell phone with me, but this time it was cleaner than the last few times. She ran it twice. It's supposed to draw out the toxins and grodiness that's in your body, and the more you do it, the deeper it goes. She wants me to come back, and I'm looking forward to doing it. Anything to get me healthier is A+ in my book!
I'm still waiting on my drops from Dr. Ray. I can tell I need to go see him again, but we have to budget it out and then I'll know when I can go. My hormones are WHACKED. I really wanted to do another round of HCG in April, and then head to AZ right after in May but we'll see. Josh's birthday is the first week of May so it'd be fun to go together to AZ, but again with the finances and budget. ;-)
I hope you're having a good day, and I hope you all are healthy and happy!