I swannee, (anyone else love DBF's books??) I am just exhausted! I haven't even been doing anything extra spectacular.
I forgot to weigh in this morning; my kids got me up with cries of "I'M STARVING" so I got them breakfast and then ate breakfast myself, and then realized I hadn't weighed yet. I'll shoot for tomorrow, but I'm honestly not expecting to lose. I haven't really been actively trying to lose weight this week.
You see, when I say my hormones are off, they are like, out of this world. I've struggled with post partum depression ever since my youngest was a few months old. So that's been going on 2 years now, and when my hormones get out of whack I feel like my life is a hurricane, swirling and raging in front of me. Anything and everything overwhelms me. It's all I can do to just meet the basic needs of my kids, much less shower, exercise and eat healthy myself.
I haven't gone off the deep end. I haven't had any horrible binges. But I also have not been counting calories, eating salads or low fat/calorie foods or exercising. I don't have the stamina, the will power or the energy for it. I feel like I'm just struggling to survive at this point. So I'm being kind to myself and not pushing it too far, which will undoubtedly end up in a huge binge of some sort. If not food wise, then lashing out at my kids wise.
I refuse to do that. It's not their fault that I feel this way, or that I'm overweight. So I lay low, try not to really go anywhere, keep meals simple and just hang on for dear life.
I really do have faith and hope that once I see Dr. Ray and my hormones begin evening out that I'll be able to get back into a nice, healthy routine with exercise and meals. It's just too much right now; the proverbial straw that would break this camel's back.
I really, really, really appreciate all your kind words and helpful suggestions. I don't always remember to comment that I've read them, but I read ALL of them and appreciate ALL of them.
So, I'm hanging in here, but don't expect any Herculean efforts from me for a little bit yet. ;-)