Soooooo close

Morning, Friends!

Thanks for the recommendations on deodorant; Mom, I'd like to try the Melaleuca stuff if you have an extra. I'll buy it from you. If that doesn't work, I'll try Axe and be like Miss Dawnie. =)

Today saw me down to 140.0--soooooooo close to the 130's! Actually, I did see 139.8 on one of the readings, but the next 2 times I stepped on the scale it was back to 140.0. I'm not recording the 130's until I'm really, truly there.

Yesterday was a very bad day; I totally cheated on my diet. I was STARVING. I think it all went off kilter when Christian told me his stomach wanted cookies, and could we bake some. So we did; we made peanut butter oatmeal cookies. They smelled so incredibly good. I wanted to take the whole bowl of dough into my bed and eat it while reading my books. ;-)

It was so intense resisting those cookies!!!! At one point I actually took a bite of one, but then got a grip on myself and spit it out into the garbage. Desperate, much? :-P From then on I was just bumbling around. For lunch I made my chicken and broccoli, but I just couldn't stomach the chicken. So I ate the broccoli and threw the chicken away. Which was, clearly, not enough food. So by dinner I was ravenous.

I ate a couple bites of cereal with milk, a bite of peach, a bite of quesadilla and a grissini. Technically the grissini is allowed, but not on top of the other stuff. There has to be more because I felt like a mouse rummaging through the cupboards nibbling on things.

I was quite shocked and surprised to see that even still I lost 0.4 and I've purposed that today will be a much cleaner eating day. I bought some gala apples and they are so good. They taste like I just picked them off the tree and are super crunchy. Love them. I've eaten one today and will eat my chicken for lunch and some hamburger for dinner.

We're going to a wedding this weekend, traveling back home. So that will be a bit of an inconvenience since I'll have to pack my food and NOT eat wedding cake or the delicious dinner meal. =(

I was thinking really hard last night, because I was thisclose to just quitting the diet. But I figure I'm now 12 days into it, I might as well finish what I start. If I can get down to 135 I will be totally happy. 135 is what I weighed forever and ever amen. Until I got married and had kiddos. So, in the whole scheme of things, I'm really close. 5 pounds! 10 pounds would be fantastic, but I sure won't be crying into my pillow at night if I end up at 135.

Originally I was shooting for 130 to give myself some leeway, but we'll just see where I'm at a week from Friday, as that is my last day of HCG drops. I am going shopping tonight for a dress for the wedding, and I'm actually really excited about it!

When my sister was here I tried on a size 8 dress and it fit, but was a bit snug around my hips. I never did try on size 8 jeans because my beloved husband made a good point. I've spent over $150 on jeans the last 3 months because I keep needing a smaller size (which is great!) but then I end up with basically brand new jeans sitting in my closet and none that fit. SOOOO, instead of trying on and buying anything right now, I'll wait til the diet is really and truly done.

Then I shall shop. :-D

For now, I'm looking forward to hopefully finding a cute dress for the wedding. I generally don't wear dresses because I am a total pear body shape and if it fits my hips, then my chest is swimming in material. But I tried on quite a few dresses with my sister and some of them were cute, so I'll see what I can find. I'll post a picture if I end up with something really cute. ;-)

Another super exciting thing for me is that I *have* to get my rings re-sized. They slide all around my finger; the diamond is constantly hanging upside down on the palm-side of my hand. It also is dangerously close to just slipping right off sometime during the day. I don't know why, but this excites me to no end! I already have a fairly small ring size; 5.5 I think. But it's still exciting that another part of me is getting thinner and needs a smaller size to fit comfortably.

Well, my friends, my housework is calling to me. It's not a very nice sound, but it must be done, so I'm off to whip this place into shape and get a start on packing all our stuff for the weekend. We're leaving Thursday night, so I may not be back to post until Sunday or Monday. Well, I'll post tomorrow, of course, but then not again until after the weekend.

DAWNE: I am checking in now (since I'll be computerless Saturday) to say that I was treat free this week. If anything changes, I'll let you know ASAP. ;-)